12.23.2011

体験イソマヌエル :: Emmanuel Experience.


With the celebration of Christmas, I have been considering what this means for our lives today. 


Mary  was said to have found favor with God...
He choose her: a simple, small, girl to serve as the mother of His Son. 
He chose her because her heart was pure. 

But the message to me comes greatest in Mary's response and reception to what was about to happen in her life. Sure, Mary was greatly troubled at the news and she had her doubts about it...
but, she trusted completely in God with a pure, meek, and humble spirit.
 Worry did not overcome her, she knew God was with her.

"For nothing is impossible with God"...
when hearing this, Mary's whole hearted response was,
"Behold, I am the bondslave of the Lord" 



Not only this, but "she treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart".

 Mary knew what was necessary in quieting her heart and mind in order to dispose herself in prayer. Such prayer and dependence on God is what made her pure. Nobody can love Jesus more than Mary.  And while I have fallen madly in love with Jesus through this Emmanuel experience... I want to love Him more + more.

I have been the opposite of Mary. Proud, doubting + selfish with love have been my ways.
I want to be humble, but even in writing this... I am not.  

" BE COMPLETELY HUMBLE + GENTLE, BE PATIENT, 
BEARING WITH ONE ANOTHER IN LOVE"













11.23.2011

::: giving thanks:::


 two roads diverged in a wood, and i-
i took the one less traveled by.

and that has made all the difference.
-robert frost


 today marks "thanksgiving" for me here in japan. while it is officially tomorrow in america, i am reminded of one thing: every day is a day to give thanks!


the changing of the seasons here are not only beautiful but also a part of japan's rich cultural story. each season shares a bit more about the "life" of japan. our own  lives are much and the same. each changing of season, while some rough, maybe some smooth... tell a story about us.

japan is just now passing from autumn to winter. the こうよう( autumn colors) bear witness to how something as vulnerable as the trees shedding their leaves can be both beautiful and graceful.

walking through the grocery today, i began laughing to myself as I watched a child in her stroller throwing her arms and kicking her legs about in a tantrum uncomfortable in all her winter clothing. she wanted it off. now! i throw similar tantrums "inside" sometimes... i want things to remain the same. i like consistency. but growth in this life to its very fullest can never come about without seasons... with out change.

as i have stopped to look upon the beauty of the changing seasons here in japan, i discover...the full color and beauty only comes when we don't fight the change. each and every day is an opportunity for us to give thanks, share the goodness of what that day has for us. if the day requires a "shedding"... shed. this very day, God might have chosen for you to be one of the many trees in the forest that must "shed and die". what you + i cannot see is the masterpiece He is creating when we must do so.

" This is the day that the Lord has made; Let us rejoice and be glad in it" 
-Psalm 118:24 
living a life of thanks is not easy by any means. i see many others doing it much better than me. its much easier to grumble. living a life of thanks means living a life of worship. in spirit. in truth. in action. it means being the best possible expression of His love that I can be each and every day.

New apple farmer buddy: Nakenida farms
it is more than a どもありがとうございます ( thank you very much)... its a living it out, こころからdeep かんしゃします (I'm grateful)。I am grateful for many things today... for wonderful people in my life, for my family, for having more than enough of what I need to live daily, and for even the extras. I fail miserably at living this out well though. I am grateful to God for life ( oh how many of you don't even realize what a miracle it is to be alive), for this day and for his amazing love, but I often miss the many "little" opportunities to live it well in "worship". While the seasons of my life may each appear different, I want them to tell the story, "主をさんびします(I worship/praise God)".

To some who read this, it may seem unfitting to your life,maybe you don't believe in God or believe that he created your life with purpose but thirteen years ago I made a choice to continue down one road or go down another. Just like you and I make choices everyday. I chose the one less traveled by. i chose the road because I saw something of Gods beauty along it.  my life has never been the same since... but it has also never been better! some seasons have been more graceful than others but regardless of my stubbornness, His love and faithfulness has remained the same... constant like rich soil
Shiho san しほさ
for me to grow in year after year. often, i get to see the beauty of what He is making out of you and me; the forest and the trees!

each of our lives have great purpose. you were made and given life in order to be a "daily expression of His rich goodness" . though daily we make mistakes, nothing in you was made with mistake. everything you  + i do is an opportunity for us to express our gratitude.

 主たかんしゃしましょう!( lets give thanks to God), for all that we have been given. We can do this in worship by , "こころをつくし,せいしんをつくし、おもいをつくして、主なるあなたのかみをあいせよ" -Love the Lord your God with all of your heart, with all of your soul, and with all of your mind.”Matthew マタイの (ふくいんしょ)22:37 

 

11.02.2011

::: one day :::

Please click on link above, lyrics can also be found there.  The new album "love and war and the sea in between" is insanely good.

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Phew... a rough two months its been for me here in Japan as the "foreigner".  A deep valley I feel I have just passed through. Spirit heavy, emotions all over the place, heart discouraged, tested, tried... still always knowing God present, but struggling to "do" life as a "believer". Loving God with ALL that we are... I fall short of the full measure every day. The path is not easy... it's narrow...

Ichinoseki, Iwate, Japan

Two things remain strong in my heart and mind though..
I love Jesus + Japan. This is why I am here.

 Great danger comes to us though when we begin fearing man and not fearing God. This was my problem I think.  I do not mean He is a scary God, only that we should revere Him and that He alone has the power to give us eternal life or death. While the circumstances here have been difficult, I really needed my eyes turned back up to Him. I was so worried about respecting and honoring the people and being sensitive to the culture here, that I was conforming and forgetting who I was, and who I belonged to. 
 I am His!!!  
I can trust that God's perfect goodness and faithfulness will always see me through. Life with Jesus is good, brothers and sisters. Japan is a rich + complex culture, one I may never fully understand but I can have compassion for my brothers + sisters at this time,
without sacrificing "me" or losing heart.
He is personal and knows "my"and "your" name.
 Peace begins with a smile,
a smile I will cheerfully wear! 
Lets keep going together.
Greater things are still to come...
Temporary Housing, Iwate, Japan/ mobile cafe FUN!






















" Love God, your  God, with your whole heart: love him with all that's in you, love him with all you've got!" 
Deuteronomy 6:5 



















10.11.2011

...inhale and exhale

I cannot come to grips with my current state...
Feel much like a fish flapping around on the dry shore.
Needing desperately and longing only to be in safe, living water


breath in the air, feeding on your word... sustains me
but truth remains,
insufficient and inadequate...me


What is a "fish" with out water?
What am "I" without  You, my God?


You are mighty to save...
God save me.
I need you!